I got thinking….

I wonder if this medicine that you are taking is really good for you.  Your mother seems to agree.  It has been a about 2 years that you have been taking medicine for ADHD, but I started thinking about again, since you were switched to Vyvanse.  I read all this side effects, and it really makes me worry.  You have to understand Caleb, I think I have taken a total of 20 pills in my life. in other words, I rarely.  Your mom is the opposite, everytime you have a headache, there is a pill coming.  I don’t think a body needs that “help” to get better.  This is why I would prefer you not take any ADHD medicine.  You say you feel better with it, that you can concentrate better, which I believe, but what is going to happen in the future….as a result of this.  Nothing? Hopefully not…I pray nothing!!!

You mean the world to me Caleb, you honestly do…it isn’t just a nice looking statement…I really mean it.  We as parents have to make the right decisions for you, decisions that can and will make an impact on your life.  We have to get it right the first time.

I know God is watching you at all times…I believe in that.

 

Ferris Bueller

Watched it together tonight!!!! It was the first time you had seen it….and you loved it.  I am so glad we watched it together…it is a classic from the 80′s.  Had a real good time.

by the way….you are 11!!!!!

I love you!!!!

Christmas 2011

It seems like I have been saying it pretty much every year for the last few, but, I can’t believe another year is almost over.  We just celebrated XMas yesterday at your Tia Mona’s house.  It was great.  Almost everybody from grandma’s side was there, except our New Mexico family.

You got a bunch of games and toys again.  I got you the Turtle Beach headset that you wanted for Xbox.  It is pretty cool.  I also got you a chess set, a hat you wanted, and some other things.  You are currently playing on XBox upstairs right now, while you sing and yell out loud.  You are a little hyper.  Hahaha.

I got grandma her first tablet, a Kindle Fire.  It is so cool.  One of the popular games right now that everybody plays is Word with Friends.  You are beating everybody.

Some cute things that you still do”

sing like crazy

play legos

draw a lot.  (i hope you don’t stop)

blow kisses when you are saying goodbye to somebody.

but in other things…I can tell you are getting older.  I want you to stay little.

In other news…a few weeks ago, in fact on Dec 15, 2011, your tia mona, tio Sean, kenzie, alex, grandma, and me all went to your school for your Winter Concert.  We have a lot of pictures and video from that night.  I am so proud of you Caleb!!  you have been doing a great job practicing and knowing your music.  You were so happy to see all of us there.  It made me feel good to be there with you, supporting your music.  Afterwards, you included, we all went to go eat at Moretti’s in Fox Lake.  It was great food and great times.

Well that is just a tad of what has been going on.  I love you and I’ll write more soon.

 

…..some thoughts…

so many things go through my mind…I hope I can write many of them down….

i love you…..realizing that you are growing up with out me is so hard.  I mean you see me often, though not as often as I would like….or as often as a “real dad” does.  Honestly I wish you lived with me, so that I can see you everyday.  So that I can teach you and talk to you about the things that I think are important to know…..but it isn’t like that.  You are growing up with your mom (which is important) but you are also growing up with your mom’s husband.  From the times I have met him….he seems to be a good person, always respectful, and a nice guy.  …….. I guess I should just say it….. I feel “jealous”….. not like a “boy who found out his girl is talking to somebody else..jealous” but the kind of jealousness that feels hurtful…..the kind that feels…”I wish I could do that”.    Caleb… I wish I could be the one to be there for you at all times…when you come home from school and need to tell somebody something.  You are my boy and I know it….There is going to be one day when you are going to understand me…I know there is…but I wish you could understand me now….now that you are young.  Not when it is too late, or later.

I just want you to know that I truly love you.  You are so incredibly important to me.  I value everything about you.  You are extremely important to me.

Another summer coming to an end soon….

Wow…what a great week.

I dropped you off with your mom earlier today around 6pm.  I am so sad (honestly) with you not being here.  You have been here with me for a little over 2 weeks straight.  I absolutely love it.  I would so much love for you to leave with me.  I wish you didn’t have to choose when i ask you to come live with me.  I know it may sound selfish…but of course I want you with me.  God knows what is best for you.

Well we went to Wisconsin Dells from Monday to Wednesday…it was so much fun.  We stayed at the Kalahari Resort.  When we got there, me and your Tio Chavo were oooohhin and aaahhin and how big the resort is.  You were like…”god, I have already been here.  I think it is funny that you guys think it is so big, and I think it is normal.”  you were being a pain in the but..but it was funny now that I am remembering.  We of course went swimming each day.  You would of stayed there all night…it is like you are a fish!!! haha.  You got to go on the ducks (the tour boats/truck) unfortunately I got really sick and stayed in the hotel room to sleep.  I did not feel good at all.  You complained a bunch of times about Alex.  You kept saying “he is so annoying, he keeps pinching me, hitting me.  I am getting tired of it”  He was just being a typical 5 year old who wants you and Kenzie’s attention.

We came back on Wednesday night and stuck around Tia Mona’s house.  Since Tio Chavo was visiting along with Hilda and Jasmin from New Mexico, the family came over and we had dinner.  You of course with your neverending energy were playing with Alex and Kenzie all night, along with Kady, your Tio Alex Zuniga’s daughter.

On thursday we just took it easy.  I took you to Barnes & Nobles and bought you 3 books.  I had told you that I wanted you to start reading more.  You are always on XBox 360, so I decided to take you there and get you some books.  Wow you really impressed me.  One of the books you bought, you were really into it.  For the next 4 days, you were reading a lot.  You read in the car, at grandma’s store, in the living room.  A few times when i thought you were going to be playing video games, you were actually reading.  I am really impressed with you Caleb.  I really honestly think you are an incredible young man.  You are very intelligent, very gifted.  I hope you reach your potential.

Well on Saturday we went to my Abuelitos 70th Wedding Anniversary.  We had such a great time.  You were dancing like I have never seen before.  It was funny because Alexi, who is your Tia Christie’s daughter, wanted to dance and dance with anyone.  She kept asking me, but I was actually talking to your Tio Tony about something,  So you happened to walk near me, and I told you “go dance with Alex” and you were like “No, I don’t like dancing” and of course you said “ok will you give me $5″ and I was like ok fine.  That song ended and you continued dancing…..at the end of the night you said to me “ok you owe me $75″ i was like “yeah right” I thought it was hilarious, because it was obvious you were having so much fun.  Alexi is such a cute little girl….she is gonna be trouble!!! hahaha

You gave me a little bit of a scare that night, I was looking for you and your little crew.  It was you, little tony, papas, sammy, and not sure who else…but I started looking for you guys and couldn’t find you anywhere.  Not outside, not inside, not in the lobby.  I was worried for a few minutes.  I never worried too much, because it is not like you to do something “bad”……..when all of a sudden I see you walking with my Tia Lupe….(i had mentioned to her if she had seen you guys, so she was on the prowl looking for you guys also)…she is like they were under the table playing their video games.  Oh my god!!  I was like are you serious….but Tia Lupe was like they weren’t hiding from anybody, they just decided to play under the table.  at the end it was funny.

we ended the night having dinner at TGI Friday’s with your tio tony, little tony, and Kelly.  It was real nice being with the family.

It was great seeing my abuelitos ( they are your great grandparents) Just to refresh your memory.  Abuelito was in a car accident 5 days before Christmas, 2010.  He was pretty banged up…being how old he is, it was a blessing that he has been able to recover enough that he can walk on his own (albeit needing help from a walker).  He was always a very strong man, it is kind of sad to see him so “slow” now.  He is a great man Caleb.  There are probably close to 100 or more people that stretch down in family tree because of them two.  It is a great story to know where we came from.

Well that brings us to today.  We just relaxed….we had breakfast at Abuelitos house in Lincolnwood…then stopped by at Kelly and Tio Tony’s bridal shower.  After wards I had to take you to your mom.

What a great time though..I love making memories with you.  I hope this blog allows us to remember a little more than we would have without it.

I love you so much Caleb.  I cannot say it enough..

Your papi…..

I always ask you “who loves you babe?”….and you always know the answer… “Papi”

fell asleep early today

you were really tired today…..you went to sleep at around 730 pm today.  You were complaining about a headache.  I hope you feel better soon.  You rarely ever get sick.  It is strange to see you sick because it certainly is strange to see it.  For the past two days you have been going to Tia Mona’s house and playing with Kenzie and Alex.  Your Tia Sabrina has been the “nanny”  Tia Mona had to fire her real nanny because she was telling Kenzie and Alex it is ok to lie sometimes.  For example your tia Mona has let her know that they can only watch 30 minutes of TV per day, and the nanny has been allowing them to watch more.  She told them to not tell Tia Mona the truth.  It is too bad because she was a good nanny, but obviously not good enough.

So anyways next week we are going to be going to Wisconsin Dells with Tia Mona, Tio Sean, Kenzie, Alex, Tio Chavo, Tia Hilda, and Jazmin.  I can’t wait.  It is going to be cool being with them.  Really excited.  I am taking 10 days off.  It is the first time in 2 years that I take so many days off in a row.  I usually take my vacation in 4 or 5 days.

Today your grandma used my iPad for the first time.  It is the first time she reads an ebook.  She bought it off of the Amazon.com website (the Kindle store)….I wonder if it is still around in the future.  Anyhow she is getting used to swiping the pages instead of actually reading from a real book.

We have been having some extremely powerful thunderstorms lately…..in the past 4 or 5 weeks we have had at least 4 of them.  This weather sure is getting to be very strange.

i love you Caleb…

a little advice…..always be honest…..be proactive because time cant be retrieved…..always read…..finish what you start…..be a good man….

 

I love you so much!!!!

9.6 Miles!!!!

whoa!!! we just biked for that much

from grandma’s house to grandma’s store and then to Tia Mona’s house and then back home!!!!

You were so pumped up!!!

Check out the map that I uploaded….

A little problem…

Hey little guy….

Today we had a little problem…your mom was very upset today because you haven’t had your phone with you all week (about 6 days).  She got you this phone so that she can get a hold of you whenever she wants.  The problem is that you didn’t have it.  You forgot it in your Tia Bina’s truck and it has been there all week.  Anyways I hope you know that I don’t ever want you to feel like you are in the middle of problems.  Your mom and I love you very much, as much as any parents can possibly love their kids.  Just understand that sometimes people, or parents can have arguments or differences and it doesn’t mean that there is a problem forever.  That is why things should be talked about and why people should try and resolve these problems as peacefully as possible.

Anyways…..i just spoke to you…you are with your Tia Mona and cousins, you are coming back from Kyle’s birthday party at Legoland.  You have been there all day!!! Since like 1:30pm….!!!  I am going to pick you up and I was planning to go biking with you now that you have your own bike.  I am going to go get you in about 15 minutes.

tomorrow (july 16, 2011) I am going to be dropping you off with your momma.  I already miss you baby!!!

Vacation 2011 – July

You have been so busy this week!!!   You have spent almost everyday this week with your cousins Kenzie and Alex, and your tia and tio.  Your tia was so nice, she bought you a bicycle on tuesday.  (today is thursday)  It was actually the bicycle that we went to see on Monday.  I was hoping to buy it for you soon.

So on Monday we went and played some soccer and played catch…..we were totally sweating after about 20 minutes.  It felt so good to workout and build up a good sweat.  We promised to do it more this summer.  That means no more XBox 360!!!!  You have been playing that nonstop every time you get a chance.  d

So lets see….on Tuesday you went to Gilson Beach and spent almost 5 hours there.  There are so many pictures of you at the Lake…..you look like you had so much fun.  You ended up spending the night there with your cousins.  When I went to drop off clothes for you, you guys wanted to show me the “fort” that you guys built.  There was a room for each of you.  It was so cool to see that.

On wednesday you guys were planning to go to Navy Pier but I think you guys wanted to instead stay around Tia’s house and just play there.  So that was pretty cool.

I love when you are here with me…..I wish so badly you would live with me.  I understand that you want to stay with your brother and sister, and I have to learn to be patient and understand, but it really is hard.  I just really would love for you to live with me.  It would be the best.   We will see what God has in store for us.

We took Mom home (she was with you guys at Tia’s house) and it was so nice of you when you walked her to the garage.  I loved seeing you and mom hug when you were saying your goodbyes for the night.  Very touching.

 

Talk to you soon kiddo!!!

i love you!!

Father’s Day 2011

I had a great day with you today Caleb.  Going to Gameworks was so much fun.  During lunch there, you were so funny when you started picking out the onion from the cheeseburger sliders that you ordered.  You said that the taste was “weird.”  The reason I think it is funny is because even you say that it is strange that you like onion rings, but yet you don’t want onions on your burger.  Hahaha.

After lunch we played a bunch of different arcade games.  Football toss, basketball toss, RC Car game, some shooting games, Guitar Hero (which you love)…and also air hockey.  We were both kinda of sweaty towards the end because of all the playing.  Afterwards we went to Jamba Juice to have some smoothies.  Such a good time.

Then at home you beat me for the second time in 2 days at NBA 2K11.  I am not going to lie, I was trying to win. haha, but you beat me.

It was a great week.  Since you are on vacation, you were here for a little over a week.  It was weird not having you here tonight.  I miss you already.

Well it is late right now…almost 4 am, don’t know why I am up so late.  Just can’t sleep.

I love you Caleb…and thank you for today!!!